22 January 2011 - Reflections
sometimes I do feel a little bit sick and tired of the life during the weekdays now. we had our fun times, but this week was kinda a long week too. maybe its time to do some reflections again.
in a place with many restrictions, things like people can't do this and that, especially smoking, I can feel a little bit uptight at times because of the "you are not allowed to do these" (I'm not a smoker FYI). imagine cooped up in a place where you can't see your dear friends, your family. this is something that most of us have to go through. some try to smoke through certain restrictions and they get away with it, while a few unfortunate ones would get caught for things that they are not allowed to do, and got things in a mess. that very day, one of us got caught for smoking.
two days ago itself, was a long and tormenting day for the group. as a group, we knew we couldn't blame the culprit or anyone for things that happened. the fact that people do risky things always have a chance of getting caught. we can never deny the fact that weekends are damn precious for those who always get cooped up in the weekdays. I cherish my time of freedom a lot, because every week, I only get a rough 50 hours of freedom which is never enough for me.
when we formed up and had a conversation, we were told that everyone would be confined. some had strong objections, including myself but I did not voice it out. I realized some, or perhaps all of us feel the same when the FI intentionally asked some of us the ultimate question:
"what if your weekend is being taken away?"
And that was the time I realized, everyone's the same...
that we all want to get out of that place and spend our time with our loved ones.
we got fucked in the mind, a few broke down because somehow the whole thing was so...dramatic, as though we were killing each other mentally. we told ourselves that we would be more disciplined, all 37 of us but whether how many of us can do it, I can never find an answer to the question.
some people learn things fast, while some will understand only when they learn through the Hard way. but the most fucked up thing is, some will never learn no matter how you teach them, because their minds are fucked up, and I doubt they would ever change.
in a place with many restrictions, things like people can't do this and that, especially smoking, I can feel a little bit uptight at times because of the "you are not allowed to do these" (I'm not a smoker FYI). imagine cooped up in a place where you can't see your dear friends, your family. this is something that most of us have to go through. some try to smoke through certain restrictions and they get away with it, while a few unfortunate ones would get caught for things that they are not allowed to do, and got things in a mess. that very day, one of us got caught for smoking.
two days ago itself, was a long and tormenting day for the group. as a group, we knew we couldn't blame the culprit or anyone for things that happened. the fact that people do risky things always have a chance of getting caught. we can never deny the fact that weekends are damn precious for those who always get cooped up in the weekdays. I cherish my time of freedom a lot, because every week, I only get a rough 50 hours of freedom which is never enough for me.
when we formed up and had a conversation, we were told that everyone would be confined. some had strong objections, including myself but I did not voice it out. I realized some, or perhaps all of us feel the same when the FI intentionally asked some of us the ultimate question:
"what if your weekend is being taken away?"
And that was the time I realized, everyone's the same...
that we all want to get out of that place and spend our time with our loved ones.
we got fucked in the mind, a few broke down because somehow the whole thing was so...dramatic, as though we were killing each other mentally. we told ourselves that we would be more disciplined, all 37 of us but whether how many of us can do it, I can never find an answer to the question.
some people learn things fast, while some will understand only when they learn through the Hard way. but the most fucked up thing is, some will never learn no matter how you teach them, because their minds are fucked up, and I doubt they would ever change.
Labels: Growing Up (NS), Rantings
Written on 9:05 AM
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